I’ve been different for as long as I remember. Not in a self-entitled “I am unique!” manner. I don’t mean it like that. Just that I’ve very often stood out because of who I am, the choices I make, and also due to my surrounding circumstances, thanks to which I inevitably stand out. Language is one thing. My mother tongue does not belong to the local languages spoken where I live. Then there’s race. Every time I fill out a form that requires me to indicate my race, I have to pick “Other”.
When it came to choosing my subject combination for A Levels, not only did I pick the humanities over the sciences, I chose subjects that the absolute minority did in the whole country. For example, I picked Theatre. Most people I come across didn’t even know it could be taken as a subject. When I speak English, I would sound local enough to a foreigner but any local who listens extra closely can tell that I’m either not local, or they think I attended an international school. When it came to university, most of my friends chose to study business, accountancy or engineering. They saw the humanities and social sciences as too much of a risk. They preferred to study something that leads them to a secure job. Maybe they were on to something. I’m still cracking my head over which companies I want to apply to.
As a result, many things have felt more complicated than they needed to be in my life. That’s why I’ve always found it heartening when I came across books with characters that experienced at least part of what I’ve gone through and still go through. They make me feel less alone.
So anyway, book reviews are obviously meant to feature the books. I will still continue to do book reviews because I find they help me be a more critical reader and an equally critical writer but I will also write reflections, if you will, on issues that I feel more strongly about in the books that I read. These ramblings don’t belong in book reviews but those thoughts of mine need a home, so I’m going to start with Reflect. Somehow I hesitate to refer to this as a feature because these posts will probably not be necessarily orderly. I will very likely ramble. A lot. Feel free to stick around though, if you want. Maybe you’ll agree with some of my thoughts. Maybe you’ll disagree. Either way, you will learn more about what makes me tick, while I try to figure out who I am, one book at a time. I must warn you though, these posts will contain spoilers for the books that I decide to refer to.